Unbelievable!

Today is 28 Dec 2020.

On 25 Dec 2020, I did not received any WhatsApp from my ‘BFF’ the whole day.

Thought maybe she was busy as it was Christmas Day.

The next day, also no text from her.

I felt “dejected”.  Three days in a row, no “news” from her.

Straight away I knew she decided to stop forwarding the daily devotional to me.

I felt sort of “out of place” and keep thinking why she did that to me.

I was dumb founded.

I couldn’t recall doing or saying anything that offended her recently!

I have always treated her as nice as I can but but she just treated me like a “feather”.

Just felt that if she is in good mood, she will smile to her, talks to me.

If she is moody or feels irritated, she would just ignore me, like in this case, me like a “feather” to her was blown away from her.

She never considers my feelings. She just totally ignored my feelings. She did not realised that she has “wounded” me with her doings!

Normally, she will forward me the daily devotional Everyday except on 1 or 2 occasions, she forgot to send.

The last time she WhatsApp me the daily devotional was on Christmas Eve, 24 Dec 2020 and I wished her blessed Christmas and happy new year.

From that day till this morning, no more devotional to me.

She just “cut-off” me from her WhatsApp since Christmas Day.

I could have ask her why but I did not as I think she may have her reasons for doing so.

No point asking and I don’t think it helps.

Of course, I felt upset but there is nothing which I can do.

I told myself that no matter what, I still have to maintain the relationship with her; not friendship which she has given up but working relationships as we still need to liaise with each other for work concerns.

This morning in office, I still said hello to her.  Yes I have to even if I dun feel like it. (have to be thick skin).

Anyway I still have to face her in the office and I can’t ignore her totally.

I really felt very innocent and I am!

For some unknown reasons, I have became her “victim”.

Why not me?

It may take some time for me to get over this incident.  I am not like her, suka suka just “kick” me away and then forgets about everything.

The reason being that right in the beginning of this friendship, I have put in too much 感情 into it all at once.

SIGH...

She didn’t realise that all along when things happened between us, I have been very patient with her and tolerated her nonsense.

I am not sure if she “feels” anything at all be it upset, or what not or it’s just her mood swings’ fault?

Maybe, maybe I am at fault also but didn’t realise it??