True colours

Lately there have been some changes in the office.

Noticed that my colleague 1 whom I sort of admired her has started to change her attitude towards me.
She told me off in a “nice” way but I felt quite “sad” that she is starting to show her true colours.

It is due to the fact that there will be some changes in her job and mine starting next year.

Just this morning we were talking about some work. I asked my colleague 2 to send the email but she asked me to send it instead. I then asked colleague 1 to send. She answered that it doesn’t mean she is capable she has to do everything.

I was “shocked” to hear it and do not know how to answer her. I just know that she has changed.

Well all along I have been treating her so nice but now colleague 1 is treating me differently from before.

Siiiigh.....

The other day when she was complaining about the other colleague, I started to sense that she is going to show her true colours.  True enough it happened today again.

I find that she is “too full of herself” now and I was disheartened.

I just hope and pray that everything will be fine for me with the 2 of them for now till Jan next year.

Ya just like S said if really cannot stand the work stress retire early.

For me, it is more of colleagues problems than work stress.

I have shared the incident with F today.

Taking advantage

Lately I have been feeling depressed.
I noticed that my junior staff and me were “drifting apart”.
She is treating me more and more like I am invisible.

These few years she Always like to ‘pick on me’ as though I am her subordinate.

I regretted that all along I have been treating her nicely and she always hurt my pride or rather self esteem. I have been tolerating her attitude problems these few years.

The only reason I can think of her being so rude to me is that I am being too kind.

She just thought that she is the boss or what.  Wow really can’t stand her.

In the very beginning I should not have confirmed her for this job since she was always late for work and taking Long lunch.  Now she has gradually improved and I have given her good appraisal.

She also doesn’t know how to appreciate.  It’s like throwing gold into the “Long Kow”.

All because I am too kind to her and now I really regretted.

My Friend told me dun bother with her but sometimes I retialated in my own ways when she provokes me when I am moody and I regretted my own actions.

I didn’t show good testimony as a Christian.  May I forgive her as God forgives me.

Amen!

Things have changed

Right this was what I thought so…

Ah B ‘said’ me directly in the face yesterday. I was taken aback but hoped that I didn’t show it.

Lately she has changed her style in the office. She talked and laughed carefree. Not sure if she was influenced by the ‘someone’.

I also observed that she and ah A were ‘talking’ secretly using their hand phones.  A few times I felt like telling the ‘someone’ that the 2 of them were good friends behind the scene.  Not sure if she sensed it.

Aiyoh don’t be k poh.  She will not thank you.

I already sensed it previously when ah A always so concerned about ah B and always follow her wherever she goes.

Aiyah mind my own business.

Anyway I have always been kind to these 3 people especially ah B.  Hope she Will always remember.

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Things have changed people have changed and I think I am more or less the same ...sad...

I need to change too...my attitude my perspective my everything if can.

Need to go to bed now.

Yes I am catching up with my old friends tomorrow. Hope we will have a good time :)

Emotional and sensitive

Have been feeling very emotional recently.

Maybe because my oldest Nephew had undergone a major life changing experience. Sympathised with him very much.

His mum must have felt very saddened.

Yes he’s a brave guy. He has accepted the fact and is coping quite well. It’s a relief.

I was quiet in the office.  My staff just leave me along. They chit chat and laughed and seemed to treat me as invisible.  Sigh...

The other thing was that I felt that RC and I have drifted apart since we didn’t get to have lunch fellowship for 2 weeks or more.

Maybe I have been feeling emotional and very sensitive as lately the memories of my unhappy past experiences between my colleagues and me kept ‘floating up’ in my mind. I really felt so down and lonely with those memories fogging my brain.

Come on, let go of all negative thoughts and move on.

Putting all these aside, I am touched that my Long time Friend has encouraged me when I told her of my fears at work.

Yes and there is the ‘N’ ...I spoke to him over the phone lately and found out that he is very gentle and friendly over the phone.  I was ‘touched’ and almost fall in love with him. No wonder someone was attracted to him previously.

Okay, stop day dreaming.  Keep moving on and learn to be thankful and joyful.

No problem is bigger than God.

Yes yes yes !!!