Arrrh...........................................

Throw temper short while ago - who ? - that's Me.

Why - because not happy with my 9 yr old niece talking to me in a rude manner. Scolded her.
She is really 'a pain in the neck'.  Most of the times also rude to her grandma, sister and maid.
Feel like slapping her - too bad she is not my daughter. I can only say but cannot do.

Felt like I have loved her in vain. Always wanted to buy nice food for her and her sis but they just don't appreciate that you are nice to them. EFFORT WASTED.

If they are 'more kwai' I could have buy nice things or nice food for them everyday !

Of late, have not been happy at work (or rather with the people working there).  You know my workplace is becoming a 'pasar' (market in malay).

Sometimes I find these people - they are inconsiderate towards other people.  Maybe its my attitude problem.  Not sure if I have one !  The expert said have to change your attitude inorder to change others - ya its something like that.

I 'see them not smooth'. Perhaps I think too much into it. Hope it is so.

Don't know why I just can't keep my cool - always feel angry when I see the things I don't like the people I detest.  Not sure if this has something to do with my 'sickness' ?

I feel sorry towards my Father - I have not been a good witness to others.  HOw ?

Wanted to slap myself also. To wake up from thinking too much into the unnecessary, into the unhappy past....

S I G H .