Why all these 'shits' ended up on my head ? Very frustrating till I am cursing and swearing inside my heart and even throw things !
Why the so called 'partner' didn't come up with any suggestions for me until a while later. If these things happen to the 'R.M', my 'partner' would be the 1st one to give solutions. There were some past examples. Sometimes I felt jealous of this person.
Am I so irritating ? I really felt like I am left to 'zhi sheng zhi meh' in this working environment.
I have never felt so frustrated and 'helpless' and finally in the end this 'partner' has helped in a way to solve the 'critical' part of the problem.
Sometimes or rather most of the times, it doesn't pay to be too niceeeeeeeeee.
Well, I don't know. I am just a v. emotional person trying to calm my temper trying to tolerate this and that trying to be ignorant sometimes.
Come to think of it, I should have left this working place 12 years ago when I was offered another position in another work place. Me at that time was so naive so 'loyal' as to stay put at this working environment where almost everyone else is 'skiving away from work' and behaves as though this is their great grandfathers' companies !
What a shame. Why am I here in this low morale environment.
Today is the 'lashing out' of my pent-up frustrations at work. I have had tears flowing out at that point of time.
And it was just last night that I told myself I have to be 'xing fu' but sometimes I just can't control my emotions.
(sidetrack a bit....I really missed my sweet angel..every time I passed by her workplace I felt like walking in but then I stopped on time. Even if I get to see her, what can I say to her ? I have stopped thinking of her until a few weeks ago when I felt 'so lost' I thought of her again). I know I shouldn't do that, please.
