Felt very much to send a small gift to Sweet Angel. There isn't any special reason but just thought of buying her something out of the blue.
Have thought about it for a long time (maybe a month or so) but everytime my thought will end there when I thought of what would have happened if I really bought her a gift and passed it to her ?
What she would think of me for buying her something? Crazy ? Silly ? Some hidden agenda ?
I told myself since I do not have a good enough reason - let's forget about it and stop thinking and dreaming abouther (though I felt the urge to meet her again). Nothing fruitul is going to happen out of it. By the way, it would only made myself miserable and who's knows I will keep thinking of her non-stop. Well I have been doing so for more than a month. Only I myself know that kind of feelings.
Am I really 'wu yao ke chiu'. ???
Monday 26 September 2011
Friday 16 September 2011
Talk too much tonight
Aiya, I have talked too much (over-talk) tonight.
It all started with my youngest niece. She was lying down eating dinner, being fed by her maid.
I can't stand her behaviour and scolded her but she ignored me totally. That made me angrier. I kept lecturing her and she just acted 'blur' (buat bodoh).
She is only 6 years young and then she is such a 'pain in my neck'. I felt like slapping her if only she is my own daughter.
Well, you can't really beat up someone else's child. The child will hate you and the parents might too.
Infact I scolded her parents indirectly. I am so real angry and frustrated.
This girl is very stubborn, naughty and what not. Just wondering if she's sick somewhere ?
I have scolded too much and talked too much. Just hope the maid would not gossip to her employer about this incident.
I am very very angry with my niece's kind of attitude - not sure what and where's wrong with her - she just doesn't fear us (me, my mum, her maid). She kind of rude also when talking to us.
Sigh Sigh Sigh...............
I have been telling myself not to scold her again but I really can't stand her attitude and behavour and I scolded her hard enough. Again she is not 'touched' anyway.
Really don't know what to do with her. Perhaps she did all these to attract attentions. I guessed so but am not too sure about it.
I really hope and wish my this niece will behave good and better and not getting worse.
Alright men.
I don't wish to tell her off or scold her again. Just hope it won't happen again but no promise since I am quite easily agitated. Must really keep cooooooool ok !
Hope I will behave myself well (you know I have trying to learn to be gentle and gracious and see what has happened tonight - I have 'spilled the milk all over the floor').
Good gracious ME !!
It all started with my youngest niece. She was lying down eating dinner, being fed by her maid.
I can't stand her behaviour and scolded her but she ignored me totally. That made me angrier. I kept lecturing her and she just acted 'blur' (buat bodoh).
She is only 6 years young and then she is such a 'pain in my neck'. I felt like slapping her if only she is my own daughter.
Well, you can't really beat up someone else's child. The child will hate you and the parents might too.
Infact I scolded her parents indirectly. I am so real angry and frustrated.
This girl is very stubborn, naughty and what not. Just wondering if she's sick somewhere ?
I have scolded too much and talked too much. Just hope the maid would not gossip to her employer about this incident.
I am very very angry with my niece's kind of attitude - not sure what and where's wrong with her - she just doesn't fear us (me, my mum, her maid). She kind of rude also when talking to us.
Sigh Sigh Sigh...............
I have been telling myself not to scold her again but I really can't stand her attitude and behavour and I scolded her hard enough. Again she is not 'touched' anyway.
Really don't know what to do with her. Perhaps she did all these to attract attentions. I guessed so but am not too sure about it.
I really hope and wish my this niece will behave good and better and not getting worse.
Alright men.
I don't wish to tell her off or scold her again. Just hope it won't happen again but no promise since I am quite easily agitated. Must really keep cooooooool ok !
Hope I will behave myself well (you know I have trying to learn to be gentle and gracious and see what has happened tonight - I have 'spilled the milk all over the floor').
Good gracious ME !!
Sunday 11 September 2011
After thoughts (continue)
Sigh, my mum is nagging about my sis in law again - 'very sian' you know.
Don't know why she just can't let go of the past bad blood between the 2 of them. Its been 3 years already and my mum is still harping on it (inside her heart, I know).
All this while, I always thought that my mum has already forgiven my SIL but in actual fact she didn't. Not sure why she is so partial towards her. If she doesn't like her at all, she should say so before my bro married her.
She always like to make 'funny faces' behind my SIL's back. On the outlook, she just pretend to talk to her but behind her back she is not happy. (SIGH).
Why is she(my mum) like this ? I got a feeling that my SIL could sense her 'hostility' (something quite close to that description). Not only this, I also feel a big upset that my mum is unforgiving towards my SIL. But why so. Why can't she just forgive, forget and let go and 'close one eye, open one eye' and make her days and my days happy. I don't feel happy when I see her behaving like that.
Why my mum can't just forgive and forget and be happy, rather than always complaining to me about SIL. I am getting sick of it. Actually, I just told her indirectly to ask my bro to move out and this problem may be solved. Why she always make noise to me and not to the person concerned that is my bro, her precious son.
Why.......................
I just feel stressed out whenever she 'gossip' about SIL or her house maid. Her house maid is another one of a kind who is very 'busybody' trying to find out everything happening around the family.
I feel quite stressssssful....you know ?
Just hope that they will move out of my house sooner (and then there will be peace in this house this home), hopefully beginning of next year or anytime next time. Wish my dream will come true fast.
Yes, be positive. Must not let my mum disrupts my inner peace or influence my mood.
I am starting to learn to be positive and let go of all unhappiness. Well I have been taken advantage of by other people. I hate it but now I am going to do something about it and not make myself a victim to any bullies.
Yes, that's it. Don't think so much, okay ? Everything will be fine !
Don't know why she just can't let go of the past bad blood between the 2 of them. Its been 3 years already and my mum is still harping on it (inside her heart, I know).
All this while, I always thought that my mum has already forgiven my SIL but in actual fact she didn't. Not sure why she is so partial towards her. If she doesn't like her at all, she should say so before my bro married her.
She always like to make 'funny faces' behind my SIL's back. On the outlook, she just pretend to talk to her but behind her back she is not happy. (SIGH).
Why is she(my mum) like this ? I got a feeling that my SIL could sense her 'hostility' (something quite close to that description). Not only this, I also feel a big upset that my mum is unforgiving towards my SIL. But why so. Why can't she just forgive, forget and let go and 'close one eye, open one eye' and make her days and my days happy. I don't feel happy when I see her behaving like that.
Why my mum can't just forgive and forget and be happy, rather than always complaining to me about SIL. I am getting sick of it. Actually, I just told her indirectly to ask my bro to move out and this problem may be solved. Why she always make noise to me and not to the person concerned that is my bro, her precious son.
Why.......................
I just feel stressed out whenever she 'gossip' about SIL or her house maid. Her house maid is another one of a kind who is very 'busybody' trying to find out everything happening around the family.
I feel quite stressssssful....you know ?
Just hope that they will move out of my house sooner (and then there will be peace in this house this home), hopefully beginning of next year or anytime next time. Wish my dream will come true fast.
Yes, be positive. Must not let my mum disrupts my inner peace or influence my mood.
I am starting to learn to be positive and let go of all unhappiness. Well I have been taken advantage of by other people. I hate it but now I am going to do something about it and not make myself a victim to any bullies.
Yes, that's it. Don't think so much, okay ? Everything will be fine !
Friday 9 September 2011
After thoughts
I start to find my mum fussy and naggy of late. She wasn't like this when she was younger. As she aged, she became more 'partial' to my sis in law.
That's due to some bad blood between the 2 of them a few years ago and yet my mum still harps on the incident by making 'funny face' at her behind her back and didn't give good impression of her to other people.
I felt so disheartened to see my mum behaving like this. Well she is a Christian - at least she should be forgiving.
She treats the other daughter in law better and not this one. (Sigh...)
Well have to stop now as I heard my sis in law coming home
That's due to some bad blood between the 2 of them a few years ago and yet my mum still harps on the incident by making 'funny face' at her behind her back and didn't give good impression of her to other people.
I felt so disheartened to see my mum behaving like this. Well she is a Christian - at least she should be forgiving.
She treats the other daughter in law better and not this one. (Sigh...)
Well have to stop now as I heard my sis in law coming home
Friday 2 September 2011
Reconnect
After our last conversation 2 weeks ago, I eventually plucked up my courage to call her again this afternoon.
She sounded normal over the phone and me sounded a bit nervous.
Anyway, am glad that I called her today after 2 weeks' of waiting.
Actually before I call her, felt the urge to visit her at her workplace as it's just a few stops away from my workplace but I think the situation doesn't warrant it.
Well, maybe will visit her one of these days when I am in a 'better shape' as I didn't slept well for the past 1-2 weeks because of irritating body rashes.
Okay, that's all for now.
Good nite, Sweet Angel -: )
She sounded normal over the phone and me sounded a bit nervous.
Anyway, am glad that I called her today after 2 weeks' of waiting.
Actually before I call her, felt the urge to visit her at her workplace as it's just a few stops away from my workplace but I think the situation doesn't warrant it.
Well, maybe will visit her one of these days when I am in a 'better shape' as I didn't slept well for the past 1-2 weeks because of irritating body rashes.
Okay, that's all for now.
Good nite, Sweet Angel -: )
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