Misunderstanding ?

Felt quite upset this evening.

'My friend' just told me off about something which happened 3-4 weeks ago which I have totally forgotten about it.

She reminded me of this incident and chided me.

She was upset because I have made some 'not nice' remarks on her at that time.

I am upset now.

I told her she could have told me off there and then and not waited until now and told me off.

So she will keep things to herself and then 'explode' unexpectedly.

Thought she is a 'happy go lucky' person but actually she is not. 

Thought she is easy going also.

Looks like its no no.

We have known each other for more than 6 months now.

I think I don't understand her well enough.

She looks like so concerned about me and then she will tell me off when I am let off my guard.

If she is easy going she would not have kept quiiet in the beginning and then told me off 4 weeks later.

I don't like it. 

Honestly I completely forgotten about the earlier incident and she just brought it up 4 weeks later when I made the same remarks about her.

That is what she is upset about...

I am upset too.

Actually I was saying this remarks 'jokingly' and she took it so seriously as though want to 'eat' me up.

If if she had told me off the first time, this incident would not have happened today !

Sigh..the more I explained the more messy it became...

Yeah, the Guru said 'just let it go'.

Anyway have said sorry to her and she said will forgive me !  Like real.

Really don't know how long we can carry on our friendship if she behaves like this 'out of the blues' or when I accidentally 'step on her tail'  when I am not so 'seng mok'  ?

Ya, I don't have to put up with all these 'nonsense'.

Right just be natural..no acting...btw I don't like to act unlike someone who is a drama queen here.

Now I know...she can't take jokes .......it just doesn't 'look' like her anyway.

I can't take 'jokes' sometimes but I will just 'put up a brave front' occasionally.

Jus wondering if she is  a 'sensitive' person.

I am but I think I have become 'less sensitive' nowadays.

She may not know I am 'sensitive' or maybe she knew since she is a smart girl.

Or is she a 'laughing tiger'?  as she likes to laugh out loud. 

Maybe I should not thought of her as one.  Very bad huh ...'you' (that's me lah).

Okay...better stop adding fuel to fire....

Stop it now...forgive and forget and hopes she really forget about it.

Some thoughts

I found out that I am not so well like at my work place.

A sad thing to say though...

Maybe because I am not sociable, don't know how to 'curry favour' other people, 不会做人 ah.

I don't have friends in the work place - believe it or not !

The person whom I thought has treated me well actually also treated other people well too.

Sometimes I felt 'got cheated', sometimes jealous.

This person told me one thing and then did another thing.  Sometimes I just don't know whether to trust this person or not though sometimes I felt so uncertain.

Things do happen in the work place every now and then.

Is there something wrong with me - how come everyone else seems to get along well with everyone and all these people just shove me off naturally !

What have I done to them that I was being treated in this way.

Am I not 'good' enough ?

I didn't do anything wrong.  In fact, when these people skive off  during office hours, do personal things in office, I just close one eye.  I didn't report them to the 'authority'.

The best thing here is that they never get caught !

Sometimes I felt digusted with their kind of attitudes and behaviours at work but what can I do to them.

Even the person I worked closely with did not repsect me as much - that's how I feel about it.
Maybe I am wrong.  Its just that I am too sensitive about it. By nature I am sensitive.

I tried not to be sensitive but I can't help it.  I felt quite disturbed and hurt when this 'sensitive nature' worked up.  Sigh..