Had been having my sensitive emotions again for the last 2 days or maybe including today.
Its hardly bearable....
I thought I became less sensitive nowadays compared to years ago but somehow it doesn't seemed so.
My BFF invited me to a resort stay in the neighbouring country which she got it 'complimentary' and I booked the ferry tickets for both of us.
It actually didn't strike me to return favour until her other friend (who also got the complimentary vouchers from her) invited both of us to dinner while we were at the resort; and I felt I had to do something but not sure what to do.
During the dinner conversations, my BFF 'teased' me in front of her other friend and family, and somehow she hinted about how ex is the resort stay if we had to pay for it and that really 'burned up' all my 'sensitive' neurons. I just felt like leaving halfway through the dinner but in the end I managed to control my emotions and stayed till the end. and felt moody almost the whole night.
If she had not stopped rattling, I think I might have broke out in tears.
Maybe my 'sensitive emotions' is the culprit!
My BFF had been saying the same thing a few times - about how ex the resort stay is (the 1st time was when she asked me or invite me - I can't remember she said invite or to go with her). It just that I had not been 'alert' enough.
I was so 'naive' **in the beginning that I didn't thought about doing something to return her 'generous' gesture thinking that since she got it FOC in the first place but later realised she may not think alike.
Someone ever told me: Just trust your gut feelings - its usually is true.
When the 3 of us were around, she always talked to that common friend and somehow I felt 'left out'.
Anyway she knew her way before me and both of them clicked very well compared to me and BFF.
Maybe I was tired and moody and thus it sparked all the 'sensitive' neurons in my brain.
Huh ? am I right ?
My response could be a bit slow, but it hit me just this afternoon (on the way home) what I should do - a return favour.
I suddenly remembered this phrase : "THERE IS NO FREE LUNCH IN THIS WORLD"! Be it from your family members or your friends.
Btw, I returned her 'the favour' this late afternoon. I think she is happy.
I am glad that I had returned her the favour though at that point of time I was still emotional.
Yeah I don't like to 'owe' people too much.
