Work work and work

Am overwhelmed with work since more than a week ago.

All the deadlines for important projects are close to each other. Don't know which one to tackle first as to me all are equally important.

It all happened just when my colleague started to go on long leave. Sigh.
The relief staff is quite inexperience and she couldn't help much. Worse still I need to guide her.

The 'best thing' is I am sick..have flu since last Saturday night till now. Wish I can take a few days MC to rest but felt that my so called circumstances just cannot allow me to afford it and I am unable to concentrate on my work !

Hope I can get all work done on time. My boss has threw the ball at me for me to 'catch it'  and score points for him ! Very stress you know especially when I am still not feeling well.

Wish I can catch up with my sleep tonight and then to catch up with work tomorrow morning.

Got to leave the blog for now. Ciao.

Freedom

Sigh.
I am sighing again - not sure if its a good sign or not ?

I just feel 'moo-moo' out of the blues...

Come to think about it - I do not have much freedom at home !

Why ? because I am not staying alone - I am living with my mom, my bro and his family members.

Even on my off days or weekends - there's always 2-3 people at home - I do not have my own privacy.  I can't do the things I like at home for example turning on the music loud to destress; eating some 'good stuff' alone.

I just can't do anything I like in the house.  That's it. At this point of time, I really envy a few of my friends who are living alone (they are single and their parents had passed on). They really have so much freedom but not sure if they feel 'lonely'.

My mom - she is very active at her age of 70+.  Just saw her climbing up a high chair to keep things in the kitchen top cabinet !  'So suc' huh.  Felt like telling her not to do that again but the words didn't pop out of my mouth. Jus worried if she falls - then how ? On second thought I better keep my mouth shut.  No matter what I said she wouldn't listen anyway. She is actually quite stubborn though other people known her to be a meek lady.

Sometimes I came back from work - very weary - don't feel like eating dinner - how I wish I could just drop myself on the bed and sleep through the night. With my mom around, I just can't do it - have to eat my dinner first no matter what.

Another thing, she likes to keep things - old stuff since many many years ago and new stuff - she just couldn't bear to use them after buying it.  Don't know keep for what.

I was thinking inside my heart - by the time she passed on - I would have many junks to clear.

Hmm I am not cursing her but I am just sick of all these junks in my house.  There are so many clutters around the house.

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

Too many 'debts' .....

Realised recently that I have had bought way too many insurance related products.  Not sure if its healthy to do so or not.  Have always acted on impulse whenever my agent/friend asked me to buy their products without thinking twice !.

The problem is I am 'getting on in age' and is quite stressful to have to keep maintaining and paying the premiums till the day I retire.  Sigh...........Sigh..............Sigh.

I have known some of my friends who did not even bought a single insurance at all and they are living happily - no stress you know. For most people out there, they would want some kind of security and I have way bought too many 'securities'.

One of my close friends have advised me a year or two ago not to buy any more insurance but I somehow 'forgotten' and bought 2 new ones after her advice.  See..my forgetfulness...or rather I am an easy 'prey' always falling to people's 'traps'.

I think the problem here is that I don't know how to say NO even when I am not so rich.

So in the end, I am the one who suffers...not anybody else.

Something said too fast

Shouldn't have said something which I had said too fast to the power puff girl.

It all started as the 'power puff girl' is asking about some work matters relating to SY and I told her that SY is off and will take a long time to answer text.  The power puff girl sounded a bit 'shocked' and said she could ask another person who knows about the stuff but she just doesn't feel like asking him.

Well hopefully the power puff girl would not go to SY or someone else and tell them what I told her. Actually I should not have told her that. What if she twisted the words ?  Then it may cause more misunderstanding between SY and me.

I do not know what's is SY thinking about me - as already she is acting so 'cold' towards me nowadays. It really makes me feel akward and 'nan soh' at times.

Hoping things will eventually turn out fine again between the 2 of us when time goes on.

Sigh.....