I have plenty of after thoughts, especially after an incident that happened today.
You know - those people around me (whether they are my siblings, in-laws, my relatives and even colleagues) are up to no good (do not mean that I am good enough) as I felt that they are always taking advantage of me - be it money be it favours or just some little help. After they have gotten their 'wants', they would treat me like invisible or just simply ignore my presence around them !
What do you think if it happens on you - you will be hopping mad; you will be angry or you will feel 'indignant' inside your heart and even regretted that you had helped them before - yah that's how I felt ! I don't think I am being petty or expect them to return me the favours I have done to them. I never ask anything from them except that they should be appreciative of what I have done for them and not forgotten about me when they are in 'good health'.
WHAT do these people take me for ? a 'goon-do' or just because I kept quiet then they start to so called 'bully me'. Maybe to them, its no big deal but I am a emotional person and that may be the reason why I felt it that way.
Tell you what ... I am getting sick of these people - really sick and especially when these people happen to be your so called family members - you will feel hurt and upset. (You just have to let go if not how). They really cannot be depended upon when you need them need their help. Its best that you can just depend on yourself.
Yah, I have told myself many many times - to be positive - to 'close one eye' - just do not bother with what they do but I can't control my emotions. SIGH..........
Now, I will side-track a bit :
I had a dream last night - guess what's is it ? I dreamt that I am getting married to an aquaintance and the best part of it is that WE ARE SO MANY YEARS IN DIFFERENCE and in real life its really impossible that the 2 of us will be together.
Just wondering if this aquaintance has the same dream as me... HA HA.
