I scolded my youngest niece (the most 'headache' one) again last evening - really cannot 'ta-han' her attitude.
Felt that she is just too lazy to study and do homework - always watch TV and playing. She is v. stubborn too.
Well, after a 'hard lashing', I felt very 'hot' and when simmered down, I felt that I have been too harsh to her - a 8 yr old! Really don't know what to do with her - doesn't want to do her homework but wants to play computer. That's what puts me 'throwing the pan off'.
Then, there's my mum - sometimes also v. stubborn. Sometimes I find that she is double-standard when she treats her D-I-Ls. I have to 'close one eye' at times. Not sure what's wrong with her, still cannot forgive the younger D-I-L ? Its been so many years !!! Still cannot let go. SIGH.
Just imagine a 70s+ grandma - still behave like a child - sometime so nice and sometime so petty and a little unreasonable. Is that my mum ? Cannot imagine her saying some 'crude' words behind her DIL's back =-0
Me - her child - also feel bad about what she said - how come she's like that ?
No matter what - I still feel that she is biased ! I would not like to judge her but can't help it..... I am just a human bean.
You know something - I had a bad dream about her last nite - vividly remembered the worst thing she could have done. Goodness me, its just a dream !
I don't know why, why my family members are all one of many kinds. Only if I could chose my family members ;-) Am I selfish to say that ? or am I crazy ?
How nice it would be if everyone in my family can get along well with each other and have more bonding time together. Wonder if any of my siblings or family members have ever come across this thought ?
Yea, THIS IS LIFE - its made up of many beautiful and ugly things, simple and complex things, happy and unhappy events and so on and so forth...............
At this point of time, I really envy one of my friends who is staying alone (her parents has passed on and she is single). Her living is so carefree - no one to stand in her way - she can sleep whole day for who cares or she could just travels as and when she is free. Enough of saying - perhaps she is lonely - who knows ? right ?
