Of late, I am back to my 'bad habit' again. Every time when I am in this 'bad habit', I will tell myself again and again that this will be the last time and will not do it again but just cannot control myself and did it again and again just like a drug addict craving for his drugs.
Sometimes I would think of myself as a jerk, a bad jerk, a disgusting jerk who never keep his words especially in this case of 'bad habit'.
Whenever I am not in a good mood and feel stress out, I will do it for days and then stop and then do it again. Well, I have never tell anyone about my 'bad habit'. Anyway, its not a nice thing to tell.
I always feel regretted for what I have done but I have not changed so far; have not abandon this 'bad habit'.
I did it again today and hope today will be the real last time I do it and not anymore.
Wish I will be determined to do so, to stop this 'bad habit' from spreading. Must have self control though its easier said than done.
I wish myself success to kick away - to throw away this 'bad habit'.
Sigh....maybe I should say cheers ...
