Moo Moo Day

Feeling moo moo today - not sure why ? Maybe few things have happened - some money problems.
Why I have to bear responsibility for others' misgivings or poor financial planning ? why ?

When I keep thinking of all these; I feel frustrated, irritated and becoming 'hot'. Felt like yelling and screaming but not in this house or rather in this cramped house. The more I think the more I feel frustrated.  Siiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

Yes, its a weekend - its a saturday - but I just can't do the things I like - its my house but I'm like staying under people's roof !

So pathetic right.  Maybe not.  Should not feel it this way.  The more I feel it that way the more I will become one.  Have to be, need to be, must be, POSITIVE and life must get on.

Maybe I am too soft hearted, too timid ? No, I'm just trying to be kind to be generous but how do people treat me or whatever. 

Hey, its Christmas Eve today - so have to be joyful and peaceful, at least with myself - do not bother about what other ppl do or say.  That's their business. I can't be mining so much business even if I am very capable. Right ? Hmm - YES M'am.

Ah.............................................

How I wish I could drive and now I would go round driving away all my frustrations and boredom.

There were so much things or rather skills which I didn't learn when I was younger...........and now I really regret and there is no do-over. No.

Only if I could ride a bicyle, swim or drive or cook then maybe I won't be feeling so bored so idle ......