Taken for granted

My so-called friend told me 2 weeks ago that she will have lunch with me after she is back from leave.

I think she forgotten when she returned from leave and didn't say anything to me.

Yesterday she wanted to have lunch with me but I already have a prior appointment.

I suggested the next day and she said will confirm with me again.

Today when I checked with her, she said will lunch with me this coming Friday.  I said OK.

Felt a bit depressed that we were unable to have lunch today.

After some thoughts, felt that she is not sincere enough.....felt like she just said for 'f'un' or rather just

敷衍了事.

I felt 'cheated'..I am looking forward towards the lunch catch-up but......siiiiiigh...

(actually I already trying not to think about this 'fallen' friendship but recently every now and then she will said something to me making my hopes 'high'.  Sometimes I  felt like I am a 'ball' and she just spin me (the ball) around using the tip of her index finger).

This afternoon was frustrated with my pc monitor giving me some 'headaches' again...lately it keeps causing some resolutions problems and I have to keep calling the IT guys.

Its a old monitor and my office or rather the person in charge is not going to change it !

After the problem was solved over the phone, I just don't feel like talking the whole afternoon when my other colleagues were happily talking away.  They did notice that I am moody.

I felt like banging table and chair.  Went to the toilet to 'scream it out'.

Nearing end of the work day, my colleague emailed me to say she will order a new monitor for me.

What ! for a moment it needs 'somebody' approval and another moment anyone can just approve it.

On the way home was thinking about the day's happenings.  I was frustrated not only because of the 'koyat' monitor but also of what my so-called friend had done to me.

All these 'pen-up' emotions and frustrations causing me to feeling moody the whole of the late afternoon.