If time can be turned back

If - time can be turned back - I would do better than I did now....

I would have talked more to my family members, understand their needs and treated them nicer; and not to have so much regrets now for the things which I didn't do for them when they were around.

Its only after they are gone, that I realised that I have not treated them nicer when they were alive.

Perhaps at that time I was younger.  I was not sensible enough.  I was not matured then.  Did not see the big picture.

There were misunderstandings in between too.

If I had read more books then, have more friends then, things may turn out differently...and I will not have soooo much regrets !

When I see couples holding hands, holding their kids, kids kissing their parents - I really envied them - wished I am the one in the picture !

Wished I had gotten married and not staying single.

Maybe I was too choosy back then thinking I may get a better deal if I missed this one.

Maybe I really didn't get to meet the one I should.

If not, I would have kids, maybe big kids now and living a happily married life. Even if I ended up in divorce, at least I had gotten married, had honey-mooned, had sex, had baby and all other things which couples do together....

Should also have learnt driving, cycling and swimming when I was younger.

Well its still not late to learn driving, cycling and swimming now if I really wanted to.

Should also have job hopped when I was younger then and not stayed on one job for sooooo long.

I should have pursued my dream job when I first started out, but somehow due to no confidence, I gave up.

Well, most of the things whether I liked it or not, its being done. There is no turning back now..too late..

Sad to say but that's it. Why so much regrets ? 

That's my life.....