Grumpy, disappointed..

Think age is catching up.

Have been very grumpy lately.

Grumbled about my mother, my brother and so forth.

Sigh.......................................

Some of my friends thought I am a nice person...yeah I look like one but in actual fact, I am not.

Disappointed ?

Come to think of it - I am a selfish person !

Yes, I am quite generous towards my family - they want money from me, I give; they borrow money from me, I give, they did not return me the money - I never or hardly ask them for it.

Yet, sometimes they would tell others that I am stingy !

Of course, I am unhappy when I heard this !

If, if I am stingy - I would not have lend them the money or rather give them the money they need.

I think I am the only one in the family who have lent money to a few of my siblings.

They thought I am rich just because I am single.

I also need to survive - need to work need to eat need to pay rental, pay phone bills, need to buy things for myself and have to support my mother who stays with me !

Only now, after so many years, that I realised being nice or generous does not pay at all.

These people always take things for GRANTED.