Sigh.
I am sighing again - not sure if its a good sign or not ?
I just feel 'moo-moo' out of the blues...
Come to think about it - I do not have much freedom at home !
Why ? because I am not staying alone - I am living with my mom, my bro and his family members.
Even on my off days or weekends - there's always 2-3 people at home - I do not have my own privacy. I can't do the things I like at home for example turning on the music loud to destress; eating some 'good stuff' alone.
I just can't do anything I like in the house. That's it. At this point of time, I really envy a few of my friends who are living alone (they are single and their parents had passed on). They really have so much freedom but not sure if they feel 'lonely'.
My mom - she is very active at her age of 70+. Just saw her climbing up a high chair to keep things in the kitchen top cabinet ! 'So suc' huh. Felt like telling her not to do that again but the words didn't pop out of my mouth. Jus worried if she falls - then how ? On second thought I better keep my mouth shut. No matter what I said she wouldn't listen anyway. She is actually quite stubborn though other people known her to be a meek lady.
Sometimes I came back from work - very weary - don't feel like eating dinner - how I wish I could just drop myself on the bed and sleep through the night. With my mom around, I just can't do it - have to eat my dinner first no matter what.
Another thing, she likes to keep things - old stuff since many many years ago and new stuff - she just couldn't bear to use them after buying it. Don't know keep for what.
I was thinking inside my heart - by the time she passed on - I would have many junks to clear.
Hmm I am not cursing her but I am just sick of all these junks in my house. There are so many clutters around the house.
Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.
