I lectured my youngest niece again. This is not the first time.
Ya, I think I do not like her attitude. I have 'slashed' her a few times but she just doesn't change for the better. I do not like her bad manners especially towards her granny, me and the domestic helper.
She is nice to me now and then angry with me for scolding her when she done something 'unpleasant' in my presence. She can be good for a while and then some minor things happened and she will change her mood and became a 'wild goose'.
Sigh. I know sometimes I took the opportunity to vent my anger my pent-up frustrations on her. Its unfair to her, this I know but I can't help it. Am I a jerk ? sometimes I ask myself.
Well, after the shouting and yelling, I told myself that there won't be a next time. But then again when she misbehave, I will 'scream' at her again and then the history repeats itself.
I told myself I do not want to waste any more energy on her time again and again but then, look what has happened today.
I also want to live well, stay well and keep well.
Hoping, really hoping today will be the last time to scold her, shout at her etc.
Min tian hui geng how.
