Sigh, I am in facing the dilemmas..
My so-called close friend has been trying to help me finding solutions to my 'knotty' problems. These solutions really caused me some 'headaches' and diving me into 'dilemmas'. I do not wish to use her solutions (thought its too big a problem for me; in a way too 'hard' for me to do so).
I know I am the 'soft-hearted' person and just can't bring myself to do such things though its the very right thing to do .................but I just cannot bring myself to even say it out, I mean to tell the persons involved. Am I too timid or what ? Scare ?. Actually I am feeling bad even before I tell them about my solutions or rather throw back these 'knotty problems' at them. Its a real 'sticky' knotty' problem. Somewhat feeling 'uneasy' to do so.....
Its very ironical: in a way I have wanted to solve these 'knotty' problems and now my close friend (CF) has found the solutions for me and I am wishy-washy.
Ya, I am too undecisive when it comes to 'big circumstances'.
Other people can be mean to me; can treat me like 'transparent'; taking advantage of my 'meekness' and I didn't even breathe a word about it. Come to think of it, am I naive ? or trying to act blur ? or I am just being too kind.
No matter how, I just wish that things would improve and turn out better for us - be it myself or the other party. After all we areclose relatives - I do not wish to be so 'ruthless' though to other people its getting my rights correct.
Now my worries is that my CF would be furious to know that I just leave things as it is. I do not know how to face my CF though I am thankful to her for trying to help me solve the problems.
