Dinner

Tonight we went out for family dinner.  Agreed to share cost between the 3 of us.

Have been calculative over a few dollars - I mean ME.  Don't understand why I did that infront of so many people. (I could have just forget about the few bucks). This is the first time I am so persistent over a few dollars just to be fair to everyone.  Why always let my bro keep the change 'so naturally'? He has done that before.  Maybe I just want to get 'revenge'.  Or maybe I am stressed up due to heavy workload today.

Well, well........its just a small matter afterall.  Why take it to heart.  Since I have done it I shouldn't have any regrets, right ?

Hmm just be natural ok ? and things will go on as normal.  Just treat what has happened a new experience.

Sigh, I have been overwhelmed with work today that I lost my 'cool' in office - banging the drawer, throw the keys into the box etc. Felt like a 'crazy woman' this morning.  After all these happenings, felt so embarassed - such a mature person and yet I behave like that.  No matter how I should not have lost my temper infront of my other colleagues.  What a shame. I haven't been a good witness for the Lord.  Felt so sorrie for Him and myself..........Yea I am not angry with my helper for taking mc but just feeling frustrated with the work and myself ! Not sure other people will get the wrong idea.
Anyway who cares ! Yes, that should be the way (I mean the phrase 'anyway who cares').

Be of good cheer - ME.