Being "made use' of

I am feeling moody today.

Actually it did not started today.  It was a few days back.

My so called friend was not in a good mood.  She told me about what happened at work and I sort of 'sympathize' with her.

She was very unhappy as well as 'depressed'.

The next day, I asked her how things are. She was still 'mulling' over that same matter but I felt that she just overstate the matter.

At end of that day, I whatsapp her to say 'good night'.  She didn't reply me. I knew she read my message.  Maybe she was upset with me also. 

I told myself that I will not say 'good night' to her again though when she was in good mood she will always say 'good night' to me.

Yesterday my another group of friends were asking whether want to go for a short trip in the next 1-2 months.

One of them replied that they sort of have a plan to go to country 'M' for 2 nights and whatsapp to ask who is interested.

Very soon, already 4 of them were interested and 2 of us have not replied. I was half hearted, not sure want to join them or not.

This morning the 5th person replied to say unable to join as have something on.

I then replied to say I am not joining. No one tries to persuade me to go.  Sigh.

They already have 4 paxs - 2 sharing a room - just nice - 2 rooms - 4 paxs.

If I join in, it will be an odd number.

I felt sort of disappointed in this group of friends.  Previously when they go tour, and short of one pax, they will ask me to 'chip in'. Now they have 4 of them to make 2 pairs  and thats it.
Can't even bother to ask me why not joining them.....siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh.

I realised that maybe I am just their 'spare tyre' or rather 'spare kaki'....so sad...:(

Was I being 'made use' of ??  Sounds pathetic right?

Maybe I am just 'too sensitive'.

Anyway I have been thinking of 'withdrawing' from their 'tour group'.

Previously when I joined them for free and easy tour or packaged tour, our so-called 'team leader' will pair me with the most 'lo so' person to share room.  When we went out, the 'team leader' is always in 'a rush' - walking so far ahead of us and will hardly take cab and will always walk to our destinations or take bus/mrt.

I can say that out of the many of us, the 'team leader' is the richest of all !

I just feel that when we go tour, we should just enjoy ourselves - don't bother about money. If we have money to travel, we should also have money to buy nice food there and eat and take cabs as at least 3-4 of us will be sharing the cab fares.

Aiyah, its just as well....at least this time round I can have some 'peaceful' time to me alone.