Missing 'You'

Its been a week since I last text 'G'.  Wondered how she felt about my text ?
Didn't get any reply.  Hope she is not upset or angry with me.

Have been thinking of visiting or calling her but am undecided about it.

Not sure if 'G' would treat me the same as before (before I text her the silly note). I don't think she is the petty sort but I feel kind of embarassed to even call her. 

Sigh..

Wish I have the courage to call and talk to her again soon.

Aiy..why I always said the wrong things when I thought it was fine in the first place ??

Thank you note

Last Sunday, I sent a thank you note to one of my service provider for the good services rendered to me.

She called me 2 days ago to thank me.  She sounded very happy and humble over the phone and keep saying thank you, thank you.

I felt a bit 'bad' for her to thank me so much.  So I sent her an sms to say that she is so 'ke qi' and that she dearly deserved my compliments for being so nice to me. 

After sending off the sms, I quickly regretted that I shouldn't have sent it.  My sms to her may cause some misuderstandings due to the wordings I used.  I felt so 'guilty' and am not sure how she would think of my sms and keep waiting for her to reply my sms but she didn't.

I kept 'slapping' myself and wish I have talked to her personally about it rather than text her.

Aaai, really wish that was a only a dream.

Now I felt so bad about this incident (the motive was good) that I dare not think of calling her again but wish that I could have a chance to talk to her again.

Maybe I have worry too much about it !

Happenings today

This morning, I was looking for my small paper bag.

My mum saw me and asked what I am looking for.  I answered her loudly and rudely "paper baaag".
After the words came out from my mouth, I felt so regretful.  Why I answered my mum in such a manner.  I reproached myself silently and I left home for work.

I told myself that I shall not let this happen again.  No matter how I thought of her (my mum) all these years; whether she's partial or bias towards me, she is still my mum.  I have to show respect to her. I should not shout at her or answered her question rudely.  What has happened was all 'pent-up anger' on my part.

I'm not sure how she felt it with the way I answered her.  She must have felt hurt anyway.  But no matter what, I know my mum is a strong woman since she was young.  I mean she has a strong character.

I really felt so bad about the whole incident.  Have to be more careful when I talk to my mum from now on.  Hope to talk to her nicely and gentlely in future because I do not want to have any regrets in future.  I need to be forgiving just like God has forgiven me time and time again. Must not get easily hot headed.  Ok ? Yes.

Sigh....anyway its over and hope we (my mum and I) will soon forget about this morning's incident and get along well.

The Sweet Angel

I called "the sweet angel" about some enquiries.

The moment I heard her voice..I felt so refreshed as her voice is so sweet.

I wish I have lots of things to talk to her (to feel the sweetness of her voice) but I don't know what to talk to her though I could tell that she enjoyed talking to me and I also enjoyed talking to her (but I'm a person with few words).

Really hope we could talk again or meet again.

Have a sweet sweet dream, Sweet Angel :)

Children...

Children ...well not my own kids ---- I am talking about my nieces and nephews.

My nieces stay with me.  Sometimes have to coach them in their homework. The older one is more disciplined whereas the younger one is naughty (at least I find her to be).

I guess she is a spoilt child since she is the youngest and her mum loves her a lot.  Her mum (my sis in law) always say do not give the child any stress especially in doing homework.  Just let her be.

Well, I don't agree with this statement.  Sure, we only want the child to do and complete whatever homework the school teacher gives her.  If she or he could do that - its good enough. We did not ask her to do more than that. I think its not too much stress on the child.

My this youngest niece - she is active and playful generally.  But when it comes to doing homework, she will find excuses like saying later then do or tomorrow then do.  What's this.
She could take 1-2 hours just to do one page of english assessement !

I am always angry when coaching her.  Will shout and scream at her when she did not pay attention to what I said. 

I know I shouldn't shout and scream at her especially when she is young (P1).  I always regretted it after I have done so and tell myself that the next time I shall not shout at her again, but then the next time it happens again.  Well because I am easily became hot=headed !

Tonight the same thing happens again.  She just made me so angry when coaching her with her homework, that halfway through, I walked away and come into my bedroom to write this blog.

Hope I will change my attitude towards this particular niece and she will change her attitude towards me too, especially to be respectful

Come on, be positive and wish things should turn out well...

Encounter with a charming person

Through some business transactions, I get to know this person who is very charming (at least that's how I feel about).
On the second meet-up, felt like telling her that she is real charming but dare not do so.  Am afraid that she might misunderstood my compliments to her. Yea, its a sincere compliments.
Have been thinking of her every night since I last met her..
Not sure if its good or bad to keep thinking of her charming look.
Well, anyway, nothing will come out of all these imaginations............you know.
Sigh......wish I could meet her in real person again and take a real good look at her (that's all I ask for).
Am not too much, right ?