Feeling moody

I not sure why I am feelng moody this afternoon.

Its been quite a while since I was being moody.

I thought I could go shopping with a friend after we attended some event this afternoon.

However she said she needs to go home straight after the event.

Fine I said.

Somehow inside my heart I am feeling down and moody.
Maybe because this is the day I have been waiting to go out with her and then go shopping together.
It turned out not the way I wanted - and that's why I am upset with myself with her...

I felt like crying.  I don't know why.  Maybe I have been expecting too much from her.
When I did not get what I wanted and that's why I felt upset, moody and emotional.

Its just a very normal incident and I don't know why I am feeling such.

The last time (many months ago) she wanted to watch a movie with me but I rejected her.
Since then, she never mention anything about watching movie.
This incident has been lingering inside my heart and I thought one of these days I will ask her to go watch movies with me but did not have the chance to ask her yet.

On the way home after the event, she mentioned that she wants to pick up some food stuff for her boss' birthday celebration in two days' time.

She said her boss likes this food stuff so much that she ordered it for him specially.

At that moment I felt so jealoussssssssssssss of her boss.
She really goes all the way out to celebrate her boss' birthday (I was thinking inside my heart).
I felt unhappy (I don't know why) or maybe I just being sensitive.

Its been quite a long time since I acted sensitive to what people said, what they did and the things which happened.

Why she has to celebrate her boss's birthday?  Maybe she just like to do it ?

I never do that to my boss.  Maybe I am lousy. 
I felt bad. 
I started to compare between she and me.  In many ways I have lost to her. 

Why must I compare and made myself feeling miserable, moody and emotional.
Why???

I knew long time ago that 人比人气死人.

Its been 3 hours since I reached home from attending the event and I still feeling moody.

Come on, cheers up.  okay?

Moody time

My so called friend messaged me to say she is very moody and not lunching with me tomorrow.

I asked why ? if she feels like telling me she can tell me.

Then she said whenever she tries to tell me something, I was always busy with other things so she is upset.

Well she has jolly well misunderstood me..I am upset too.  I even had a short cry.

Told her it's unintentional on my part and I am trying my best to treat her nicer since she treats me nicely (even my colleague also observed it).

Later she agreed.

Now that I recalled, about 6 months ago she was very cold towards me too.  We didn't talked for like a week.  After that she told me she was moody and don't feel like talking.

Today, history has repeat itself....SIGH......................

I think she is very sensitive person same like me as I was previously. I did not tell her that.

Along the way and the years I have changed....have turned into a less senstive person.